Tuesday, August 12, 2014

What does it mean when you belong to someone?

If you call me up, I'll say a few words

But I'll try not to speak too long
Please to be kind and I'll try to explain
I'll probably get it all wrong

What does it mean when you promise someone?

That no matter how hard or whatever may come

It means that I won't give in

Won't give in, won't give in
'Cause everyone I love is here
Play it once, disappear

Once in a while I return to the fold

With people I call my own

Even if time is just a flicker of light
And we all have to die alone

What does it mean when you belong to someone?

When you're born with a name, when you carry it on

It means that I won't give in

Won't give in, won't give in
'Cause everyone I love is here
All at once, I’ll show you how to get real

Come on now, come on now, can you feel it, I can see it in you

Come on now, come on now, reveal it, turn around won't you

The right time, the right place, right now, turn around

A chance is made, a chance is lost

I carry myself to the edge of the earth

It means that I won't give in

Won't give in, won't give in
'Cause everyone I love is here
Say it once, just say it and disappear

(Finn Brothers)


I've been away for a while
(and that's ok)

It's been a tough few months but I can see the sunshine now
There's been death and sickness and arguing and ugliness

There's also been a lot of love

That sticky glue that wont come off...

... traces of it everywhere - the aftermath of what it means to
love fiercely, ruthlessly and patiently

I'm in awe of this glue
This substance that stitches the human race together
Quilting us into a pattern that cannot be traced back to its' origins

My family astound me with their capacity to heal
They inspire me and give me reason to keep on keeping on
Even when I'm not sure what the heck it is I'm actually doing

That restless heart beats within all of us
It's the Yin that sways back to the Yang
It's the down to show you which way's up

It feels good to be back 

I'd like to dedicate this post to my brother


People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. 

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. 

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...” 
― Elizabeth GilbertEat, Pray, Love


cara said...

Hello love,

I'm sorry things have been hard for you recently, I've been thinking of you. I was just talking about you to Nye a couple of days ago in fact and then you left me that beautiful comment and it made my heart happy to have such connections with other people in this lonely, difficult world.

Anyway, millions of love to you and I'm glad that you're back and I hope things are looking up and it makes me happy to hear that your family do for you what mine do for me - keep you keeping on.

C xx

cara said...

Oh, and FYI, your son is BEAUTIFUL.

Vintage Jane said...

A truly heartfelt post I can tell. Hope things really are are getting back on an even keel for you. I missed your posts.

Jane and Lance Hattatt said...

Hello Angy,

Although we do not know you, we can feel your pain in this post.

No matter that we may live in the virtual world, our common humanity binds us across the ether.

Love is the Opera of Life. The highs and the lows but to not love at all is not to be alive.

We miss your voice in Blogtopia....

Anonymous said...

Hey sis. I was so moved after reading this. It made me feel like we belong together. We belong together because I feel the same way. To know you and I will be riding the waves of life together even when we are both 6ft deep... is a pretty special thought. I could not ever imagine my life without you and all of our awesome family sharing in the tears and laughter. We really truly are all so blessed.
Yes you have popped out for a little while... but geezy by jonezy. ... you are back baby. This blog is testament to that. Steve.

terlee said...

Glad you're back Angy, you've been missed. Fingers crossed for better days ahead...

Neesie said...

I can hear your pain in your words Angy. It can't have been easy to write but hopefully it helped in the healing process.
You have all our support and love along with your family and friends lifting you up until you can go it alone.
Take care and let each tiny step lead you into that beautiful bright sunshine.
Your photographs are exquisite and let me tell you that you have a handsome son there but you know that already... right?
Hubby looks good too with that glass (don't want him to get jealous) and of course the most dashing... pooch! ^..^

Diana Studer said...

sending a gentle hug against the rough patches. Hoping for a brighter future on the way ahead, for both of us.